My Gym Crush Has No Idea I Exist and It's Fine (It's Not Fine)

They don't know I exist.

I want to be clear about this upfront so nobody gets the wrong idea. This isn't a "we make eye contact and there's tension" situation. This isn't a "I think they might like me back" situation. This is a fully one-sided, completely delusional, entirely in my head situation where I have developed a massive crush on someone who has literally never looked at me. Not once.

And yet.

AND YET.

I know their gym schedule. Monday, Wednesday, Friday, usually around 5 PM. Sometimes Saturday morning. They start with 15 minutes on the bike. Then they do upper body on Monday, legs on Wednesday, full body on Friday. They wear the same three rotation of shirts. They drink from a blue water bottle. They always wipe down their equipment.

I know all of this because I'm observant and also because I'm insane.

how did i get here

Honestly I don't know. One day I just noticed them and something in my brain went "oh no" and that was it. There was no moment. No eye contact. No interaction. Just my dumb brain deciding that this stranger was the most interesting person in a room full of people.

I think part of it is the routine thing. When you see the same person at the same time in the same place doing the same exercises... your brain starts to feel like you know them. You don't. You absolutely don't. But the familiarity creates this weird illusion of connection.

I've never heard their voice. I don't know their name. I don't know anything about them as a person. But I know they add an extra 10 lbs to their bench press when they're in a good mood and they skip the cool down stretch when they're in a hurry. So basically I'm a detective and also a stalker. Great.

the fantasy vs reality

In my head we've had entire conversations. I've imagined what I'd say. What they'd say. I've imagined us getting coffee. Working out together. I've imagined them seeing me hit a new PR and being impressed. I've imagined them asking to work in with me and it turning into a whole thing.

None of this will happen because to them I am a piece of gym equipment. I am the wall. I am the floor mat. I am an object in their peripheral vision that has zero significance. And honestly that's a pretty humbling thing to realize.

things i've done (embarrassing)

Changed my workout schedule to match theirs. Yep. I used to go in the mornings. Now I go at 5 PM. My mornings are free but I go at 5. Because that's when they go. This is not healthy behavior and I am aware.

Dressed better for the gym. I used to wear whatever. Old shirts, random shorts. Now I think about my gym outfits which is a sentence that would have horrified me six months ago. Do they notice? No. Will they ever notice? No. Do I still spend ten minutes choosing a gym shirt? Yes.

Moved to machines closer to where they work out. Not directly next to them obviously. I'm not a monster. But in the general area. The "oh we happen to be in the same section" area. They've never registered my presence.

Googled "how to approach someone at the gym" approximately 40 times and closed the tab every time.

why i can't just talk to them

Because what do I say? "Hi, I've been watching you work out for four months and I've memorized your routine"? That's a restraining order not a love story.

And the thing about approaching someone who doesn't know you exist is that there's no foundation. With eye contact at least you have a mutual acknowledgment. With a shared class or shared space you have some common ground. But when someone has never clocked your existence, going up to them is essentially cold approaching a stranger who is busy and sweaty and wearing headphones.

They always wear headphones btw. The big over-ear ones. The universal "do not talk to me" signal. I respect the headphones. The headphones are the barrier I will not cross.

the friend who told me to just go for it

My friend said "what's the worst that could happen?" and I said "they could look confused because they've never noticed me and I'd have to explain that I've been silently crushing on them for months and then I'd have to find a new gym and possibly a new city and maybe enter witness protection."

My friend said I was being dramatic.

I am being dramatic. But also I'm not.

trying to get over it

I've tried. I've done the rational thing where I remind myself that I don't actually know this person. That the crush is based on proximity and routine and physical appearance and nothing else. That I've built them up in my head and the real them could be completely different from the imagined them. They could be boring. They could be rude. They could chew with their mouth open. I don't know.

But then Wednesday at 5 PM rolls around and there they are doing lunges and my brain goes "wow" and we're back to square one.

I've tried not looking. I've tried putting on my own headphones and focusing on my workout. It works for about 20 minutes and then I catch a glimpse and it's over.

what i think i should do

Honestly? Probably nothing. Probably just let this be a dumb gym crush that fades over time. Most crushes fade if you don't feed them right? If I can just stop rearranging my life around this person's schedule and go back to morning workouts maybe the spell will break.

Or maybe I'll go at 5 PM forever and we'll be invisible to each other for years and I'll write increasingly unhinged posts about it online.

50/50 really.

if you're reading this and you relate

You're not alone. I think a lot of people have that person at the gym who they've never spoken to but think about way too much. It doesn't make you creepy. It makes you human. Brains are weird. Gyms are weird. The combination is a disaster.

Just maybe don't change your entire schedule for them like I did because in hindsight that was a bit much.

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